Sunday, January 8, 2023

WAKING FIRE

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Waking Fire

Jean Louise

On Sale Date: January 10, 2023

9781335428578

Hardcover

$18.99 USD

Ages 13 And Up

384 pages

ABOUT THE BOOK:

This incendiary YA fantasy debut follows a girl who will stop at nothing to save her village after

it’s discovered by a dangerous warlord and his army of undead monsters. Perfect for fans of A

Song of Wraiths and Ruin.

Naira Khoum has only known life in Lagusa, a quiet village at the desert’s end. But to the rest of the

world, Lagusa is a myth, its location shrouded in secrecy. While war rages to the north led by power-

hungry Sothpike and his army of undead monsters called Dambi, Naira’s people live in peace.

 

Until the impossible happens—Lagusa is attacked by a Mistress sent to do Sothpike’s bidding with a

hoard of Dambi under her control. The Mistress is looking for something, and she’s willing to let her

Dambi destroy Lagusa to get it.

 

Desperate to protect her home, Naira convinces her twin brother Nez and handsome refugee Kal to

join the newly formed resistance with her. Together, they’ll have to figure out what the Mistress

wants—before there’s nothing left of Lagusa to save.


CHAPTER ONE


“FIVE SILVERS FOR TWO KUFFAS OF RICE?” I SHAKE MY head at the exorbitant price and back away from

the grain merchant’s stall. “My mother would kill me. I’ll give you two silvers.”

The merchant’s eyes widen in shock. “Two silvers? I can’t do that. My children have to eat too!” He

holds out the sack of rice. “I’ll give it to you for four.” When I don’t immediately agree to his offer, he

shakes the bag. “The market’s closing. You won’t find a better deal anywhere else. Here, take it.”

He’s right that my options are limited. The stall my mother usually purchases grain from has already

closed and most of the other merchants are putting away their wares and board-ing up their stalls. But

four silvers is still too much.

“Two and a half.”

The merchant grimaces as if my counteroffer hurts him. “Three, and I won’t go any lower.”

I can tell he’s finished haggling, so I have no choice but to agree. “Fine.”

While he fastens a rope around the opening of the sack, I fish out three silver rubes from the leather

money pouch tied around my waist. Omma’s not going to be happy. She sent me to the market to buy

spices and rice for dinner when the sun was six hands from the western horizon, but I took so long

picking out incense at my favorite shop that by the time I got around to the errand my mother sent me

on, the market was shutting down for the evening.

I hand the merchant the money and he passes me the sack of rice.

“Thank you for your business, samida,” he says with a smile. “See you again!”

The merchant bows and I roll my eyes as I return the ges-ture. I’ll never come back to his stall even if he

were the last grain merchant in all of Lagusa. We both know he’s ripped me off, and his satisfied grin

makes me scowl even more.

I only have three silver rubes and four coppers left to buy the rest of the ingredients on Omma’s

shopping list: cumin, ground red chilis, honey, and dried orange peels. The chilis will be the most

expensive, so I’ll buy them first and then see what I can get with whatever rubes are left.

Even though the market’s closing, the roads squeezed be-tween stalls and mud-brick buildings where

one buys spices and cloth, jewels and swords, livestock and produce are still busy enough that I can’t run

to the next open spice shop. The remaining merchants and customers haggle over prices while dirty

children hold out their hands for scraps and coins. The savory aroma of charred meat cooking on a grill

makes my stomach grumble as I pass the crowded food stalls, but that’s quickly replaced by the flowery

scents coming from up head. Perfumed air engulfs me as I cross Honey Street: the place where those

who can afford it go to soak their bodies in cleansing oils and fragranced water.

I find an open spice shop with a bowl of ground chilis right out front. I motion to the owner, but she

ignores me, her eyes on something farther up the road.

“Excuse me, samida,” I say, trying to get her attention. “I’d like—”


The owner shoos me away with a wave of her hand with-out even giving me a glance. Annoyed, I follow

her gaze to see what could be so important.

A few stalls down, a plume of black smoke rises above the open market.

“Is that a fire?”

The woman nods. “I think so.”

As we watch the pillar of smoke grow, more and more people gather in the street, their eyes transfixed

on the dark clouds bisecting the sky.

“It’s those Haltayi,” a man next to me says, a sneer in his voice. “They brought in one of those mangy

desert animals, what do you call it?”

“A maugrab?”

“Yeah, the damn thing went berserk. There was some kind of scuffle and a lantern got knocked over and

set their tent on fire.”

I stand on my toes to peer over the heads of those in front of me, but it’s no use. I can’t see anything

except the smoke. “What happened to the maugrab?”

The man shrugs. “Burned to death, I guess. There’s no way it could have survived those flames.”

A frenzied roar fills the streets, quieting the crowd with its intensity. The maugrab isn’t dead yet.

I’ve always felt sorry for maugrabs—they’re sickly creatures that the Haltayi nomads capture out on the

plains beyond the village and charge parents a few rubes to let their children tug on their matted manes

or ride on their bony backs. Selling maugrab rides is one of the few ways Haltayi make money to buy

supplies so that they can survive the Rocky Plains, but the maugrabs always look so sad, so beaten, as if

the rope that keeps them tied to a stake in the ground is sapping all of the life out of them.

I can’t turn my back on a creature in pain, not if there’s something I can do to help. I forget the orders

from my mother to not dally and push my way through the crowd to-ward the fire.

The smoke thickens as I get closer, stinging my eyes and making me cough, but I trudge ahead. I finally

burst through the crowd and see the Haltayi nomads tossing buckets of water onto the flames, which

rage like a beacon in the night. Mer-chants with stalls on either side of the fire are clearing out their

wares while using wet cloths to beat away the flames that lick their wooden structures.

The maugrab roars again. A wall of flames separates the animal from safety. Through the fire, I catch

glimpses of the poor beast, its mouth open wide, its heavy paws pacing back and forth. Its short snout

contains massive, sharp teeth, and anxious muscles ripple beneath the rust-colored fur covering its

broad shoulders and hindquarters. Waves of heat prevent anyone from getting too close and helping.

Someone has to do something, or that maugrab is going to die.

Dropping my purchases on the ground, I run toward one of the stalls and climb on top of the structure,

my feet sink-ing into the cloth awning. A merchant grabs at me, yelling for me to get down. I kick his 

hands away and jump onto the next stall, then the next, until I’m on top of the stall closest to the

crackling flames.

I can hear more people hollering for me to come back, but I ignore them. Looking down, all I see is fire

and smoke. The sides of the tent have burned away but the crates and furni-ture that lined the walls are

still on fire. What remains of the top of the tent is in flames, but the section closest to me has already

burned away. I’m about to turn back—the foolishness of my actions has finally caught up with

me—when I catch sight of the maugrab through the haze.

I look into the maugrab’s eyes, and I see that it wants to live. There are so many people standing around,

watching, some of them crying, but no one’s doing anything to help. The maugrab’s going to die unless I

do something.

I have to act fast if I’m going to save the maugrab. Luckily the roof of this stall is made of wooden planks

and not fabric. I cover my face with my arms, grit my teeth, and pray to the gods that I land on the other

side of the fire and not within the flames.

A gasp erupts from the crowd as I leap over the flames. The heat briefly singes my skin before I hit the

ground with a thud. My pants are on fire, the hungry blaze eating the thin cloth. I beat out the flames

with my hands and get on my hands and knees.

The only sound is the roaring fire, and acrid smoke coats my lungs with every breath. I’ve never felt such

heat and I’m instantly drenched in sweat. It’s difficult to see, so I crawl to where I last saw the maugrab

and cry out with relief when my hand brushes a furry paw.

The maugrab is lying on the ground, its breaths shallow. I climb to my feet and tug on the beast’s rough

mane.

“Come on,” I say between coughs. “Get up!”

Slowly, the maugrab gets on all fours and I rub the sleek reddish-brown fur on its powerful shoulders.

“There’s only one way out of here,” I tell the animal, point-ing at the top of a stall, barely visible over the

wall of flames. “And I can’t make the jump. Can you do it?”

The maugrab starts forward but is held back by the rope around its neck tied to a stake in the ground. I

make quick work of the knots, and the maugrab shakes its mane and roars when it’s free.

I climb on the beast’s back and grab hold of its mane, my mind racing with prayers to the gods that I can

actually pull this off. With a powerful lurch, the maugrab leaps and clears the fire, landing on top of the

wooden stall with a skid and digging its claws into the wood to stop us from sliding off.

A cheer rises up among the crowd. I’m grinning, reckless but triumphant.

“You did it,” I tell the maugrab.

The rickety stall wobbles beneath us and the maugrab jumps onto the ground as the roof crashes down.

We’re immediately surrounded by onlookers, many of them clapping me on the back and congratulating

me as I slide off the maugrab. A Haltayi woman runs up and wraps her arms around the animal’s neck,

as a Haltayi man bows deeply be-fore me. “Thanking you, samida,” he says in his thick accent.


My cheeks flush from the attention and I return the bow. Before I can get caught up in all the smiles and

excitement, the structure that enclosed the maugrab finally collapses. Swirls of fiery ash and smoke ride

the gust of wind released by the falling structure before descending on the crowd. Cries ring out as hot

embers fall on bare skin, and I’m jostled aside by elbows as those around me slap at the little fires

clinging to their clothes.

Coughing and stumbling, I move aside to clear a path for more buckets of water to douse the flames and

find myself shoved into an alley. I take a moment to collect myself, my heart still racing, when I realize I

tossed the expensive rice aside to save the maugrab. I still need to buy everything else on Omma’s list,

but with the market in such disarray and with most of the shops already closed, I don’t know if that’s

pos-sible. And now that all the excitement has waned, exhaustion has taken over, and I just want to go

home.

I wipe the sweat from my face with the hem of my scarf and groan when I see the streaks of black on the

light blue fabric. Maybe if I explain to Omma what happened with the maugrab, she won’t be

disappointed that I didn’t buy any of the things she asked for and why I returned in such a state.

Deciding I’d rather be scolded by Omma than deal with the market again, I head down the alley, toward

the main road that will take me home. I pass boxes of refuse filled with rotting vegetables, discarded

sacks of mealy grain, and rolled-up rugs with frayed edges and covered in stains. I’m halfway through

the alley when I hear a group of voices coming from the shadows on my left.

“You’re such an idiot!” a girl yells and I stop in my tracks. She’s shrouded in shadows, but I don’t need to

see the girl to know who’s yelling.

Hamala Mugabe is the last person I’d want to meet in a dark alley.

Not because I’m scared of her. But because she makes my blood boil.

At school, Hamala seems to get all her pleasure picking on younger students, and anyone who tries to

stop her gets it worse. I’ve had no choice but to step in a few times to de-fend someone against her

bullying and that’s made me one of Hamala’s top targets. Now, every time we encounter each other,

we’re both on guard, waiting for the other to strike so that we have an excuse to strike back. It’s as if a

lifelong bond has formed between us: one that pits one girl against the other, always in conflict,

resolution residing in the strength of our fists.

“By the Fires, I swear I ought to bash your head in,” Hamala continues. “It was supposed to be a quick

grab. We had the hard part—we were the distraction! All you had to do was sneak in, steal his purse,

and sneak out, and you couldn’t even do that.”

So now Hamala’s stealing too. I thought I had reached the limit of how much I could loathe another

person, but Hamala always finds a way to push me. She doesn’t even need the money—everyone

knows the Mugabe family has plenty. She only gets away with terrorizing others because her fam-ily

always buys her way out of trouble.

The last thing I feel like doing right now is confronting her, so I try to sneak by. But I can’t help

overhearing their con-versation as I pass the darkened alcove where they’re hiding.


“How was I supposed to know that maugrab was there?” another girl whines. She sounds like Jalaan,

one of Hamala’s lackeys. “You know I’m scared of those things, and you said the tent was empty!”

I pause midstep, one foot barely touching the ground. They can’t be talking about what I think they’re

talking about, can they? Did Hamala and her goons try to steal from the Haltayi, who are some of the

poorest people in the village? Stealing from them is like snatching a beggar’s cup of change.

“You’re blaming me for this mess?” Hamala says, her voice menacing.

“Well,” a third girl chimes in, “no one told you to start a fire.”

I stiffen in shock, my eyes wide. My feet are rooted to the ground. I knew Hamala was dangerous, but

now she’s gone too far. So many people lost their livelihoods in the fire, not to mention the Haltayi

losing their tent. And that poor mau-grab would have died if I hadn’t jumped in to save it.

I have to confront her. If I don’t, no one will know what she’s done, and then there’ll be nothing

preventing her from doing something even worse next time.

Behind me, the market is emptying as the last fires are dampened. A group of watchguards inspect the

smoldering remains of the maugrab’s tent while a few stall owners lin-ger, many of them distraught over

the damage. Hamala did this—she caused all of this destruction.

“You’ve gone too far this time, Hamala,” I say, stepping into the brightest section of the alley. “Picking

on kids in the schoolyard is one thing, but stealing from Haltayi? Arson? Ei-ther you turn yourself in, or I

will.”

Slowly, as if she is the hunter and I am the prey, Hamala emerges from the shadows with three of her

friends behind her.

“You bitch,” she growls as she moves in front of me. Her lackeys stand behind me, blocking the only

other exit. I wish I had my twin brother, Nez, with me to make this fight more even. But then again, he’s

always telling me not to fight. “I’m getting so tired of seeing your ugly face. Everywhere I go, there’s

Naira Khoum sticking her nose in places where it doesn’t belong.”

I don’t clench my fists even though I want to. But if Hamala takes a swing at me, I’ll have no choice but

to defend myself and deal with Nez’s disappointment later.

“If you weren’t always causing trouble, I wouldn’t be here. I’d be home right now eating dinner. It’s

because of the fire you set that I’m here among all this garbage trying to con-vince you to do the right

thing.”

Hamala puffs out her chest. “Did you call me garbage?”

My stomach sinks. I should have known trying to reason with her would be a waste of time. She twists

everything I say into an insult.

“I think she called all of us garbage,” Jalaan says from be-hind.

A fight is coming—a big one. I can feel it in the charged air between us, hear it in the way Jalaan and the

others snicker nastily behind me, see it in Hamala’s clenched fists. I turn to the side so that I can keep

my eyes on Hamala and the others.


Hamala curls her lip in a menacing snarl and looks down at me. “I think so too. And I know exactly what

to do to someone who calls me names and can’t keep her nose out of my business.”

Hamala reaches out to shove me, but I’m too quick. I knock her arms aside and plant my foot squarely in

her stomach, kicking the air out of her lungs and sending her flying back-ward. She lands sprawled out

on the ground, stunned. The other girls look at each other, not sure what to do, waiting for their leader

to guide them, but Hamala can barely talk. Tears run down her cheeks, catching the dust that clouds the

air from her fall.

“Get her!” Hamala wheezes at last.

The next thing I know, the other girls are on top of me, pulling my hair, trying to scratch my face and

knock me to the ground. One yanks me by the arm while another tries to kick my feet out from beneath

me.

I have no choice but to fight back. My father started train-ing me in combat as soon as I was big enough

to hold a sword, so I try to end this fight quickly. I punch the tallest one in the chest, knocking her

breathless, and grab the arm of an-other girl and twist it behind her back. She whimpers in pain.

By now, Hamala has recovered her breath and is standing. She charges, knocking me and the

whimpering girl to the ground. I push the girl off me and try to get on my feet, but Hamala kicks me in

the stomach once, twice, three times. I can’t breathe, my abdomen throbs with pain, and I lie on my side

gasping for air. Then Hamala grabs my arms, wraps her legs around my waist, and holds me down. I

thrash around in an attempt to free myself, but her grip is tight.

Hamala yells out something to her lackeys, but I’m so fo-cused on our struggle that I barely register what

she’s saying.

She yells again: “Do it! Do it now!”

I glance at the other girls, afraid because whatever she has planned, it’s going to hurt. I only catch a

glimpse of the heavy rock in Jalaan’s hand right before she cracks me in the head with it.

The entire side of my face explodes with pain and my head lolls to the side. Hamala releases me from

her grip with a laugh. I crumple to the ground, dizzy and nauseous, and touch shaking fingers to my

forehead. They come away bloody.

Hamala kneels in front of me and grabs the collar of my tunic, bringing us face-to-face. She’s so close I

can see the crust in the corners of her eyes.

“This is what happens when you keep getting in my way, Khoum.” She shoves me and I fall against a

broken pot, the jagged edges scraping my back.

“You think she’s learned her lesson?” Hamala asks the oth-ers. She turns to me. “Well, you little snitch,

did you?”

I can barely see straight, stabbing pains radiate throughout my skull, and I feel like I’m going to retch.

But I still can’t let Hamala win.

I spit in her face and she jumps back in disgust.


“You rotten bitch!”

Hamala snatches the rock from Jalaan and towers over me.

I’m trying to get up, get out of the way of what I know is coming next, but I can’t seem to get my

balance. The giant rears her hand back. I notice a dark spot on the rock and it occurs to me That’s my

blood—and then the world goes black.

Excerpted from Waking Fire. Copyright © 2023 by Jean Louise. Published by Inkyard Press.




ABOUT THE AUTHOR:

Originally from Cleveland, Ohio, Jean Louise currently lives in Queens, New York, with her cat Martha. When she’s not writing, she can be found with her nose buried in a graphic novel or taking down bad guys in her favorite video games. She received an MFA in Writing for Children from The New School. This is her debut novel.

@WriteJeanLouise


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Wednesday, December 28, 2022

Their Burning Graves

 welcome to my blog tour stop for Their Burning Graves which is been hosted by Bookouture 




Book: THEIR BURNING GRAVES
Author: Helen Phifer 
Pub Day: DECEMBER 19TH 2022 
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About the Book: 

They are picture perfect. A young, happy family sat around the kitchen table. But no one moves as wisps of smoke filter into the room and the house becomes a burning grave around them…When reports come in of a family trapped in a burning house, Detective Morgan Brookes rushes to the scene. But as soon as she enters the ruined home, she is devastated by what she finds. Tied to the kitchen table, Sally and David Lawson, and their young son, had no chance of escaping the flames and the smoke…Neighbours all agree the Lawsons were the perfect family, and CCTV shows nothing suspicious. Morgan’s only clue is the silver crucifix necklace around Sally’s neck. Because according to friends, she wasn’t religious. Was someone passing divine judgement on this mother and her family?Focusing on Sally’s last steps, Morgan gets the breakthrough she needs – just days ago Sally had confided in a friend that she felt someone was watching her. And when Morgan finds photos of Sally on her neighbour Luke’s phone, all the pieces slot together.Only then another local woman reports feeling watched. Nothing seems to link her to Luke, but Morgan can’t ignore it. Could the killer still be out there? Going deeper into Sally’s past and uncovering the killer’s motivations is her only chance to save more innocent lives, but can she solve the twisted puzzle in time?A completely addictive and gripping crime thriller! Perfect for fans of Angela Marsons, Robert Dugoni and Rachel Caine.


Rating : 5

This is one of those series i can get lost in and just keep on reading from start to finish,  and each book has a touch of darkness that I love ,and this one was right on spot, it was perfect to read on a cold day while under the blankets.  What can I say I love the characters,  the  interaction between them, I especially love how it's lime your right there beside the killer when the murder takes place .And the pacing is never off ,it's neither slow nor fast. And it makes you second guess yourself just when you think you have it figured out.




Author Bio

Helen Phifer is the Bestselling writer of the hugely popular Annie Graham, Lucy Harwin, Beth Adams and her current series featuring Detective Constable Morgan Brooks published by the fabulous Bookouture.

She lives in the busy town of Barrow-in-Furness surrounded by miles of coastline and a short drive from the glorious English Lake District.

Helen loves reading books that scare the heck out of her and is eternally grateful to Stephen King, Dean Koontz, James Herbert and Graham Masterton for scaring her senseless in her teenage years. Unable to find enough scary stories she decided to write her own and her debut novel The Ghost House released in October 2013 became a #1 Global Bestseller.

She has written over twenty books in various genres and you can follow her over on Instagram https://www.instagram.com/helenphifer/

Or find her over at www.helenphifer.com


Friday, December 23, 2022

SOMEONE HAD TO DO IT

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Someone Had to Do It 

Authors: Amber and Danielle Brown

ISBN: 9781525899966

Paperback Original 

Publication Date: December 27, 2022

Publisher: Graydon House


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Brandi Maxwell is living the dream as an intern at prestigious New York fashion house Simon Van Doren. Except “living the dream” looks more like scrubbing puke from couture dresses worn by hard-partying models and putting up with microaggressions from her white colleagues. Still, she can’t help but fangirl over Simon’s it-girl daughter, Taylor. Until one night, at a glamorous Van Doren party, when Brandi overhears something she shouldn’t have, and her fate becomes dangerously intertwined Taylor’s.

 

Model and influencer Taylor Van Doren has everything…and is this close to losing it all. Her fashion mogul father will donate her inheritance to charity if she fails her next drug test, and he’s about to marry someone nearly as young as Taylor, further threatening her stake in the family fortune. But Taylor deserves the money that’s rightfully hers. And she’ll go to any lengths to get it, even if that means sacrificing her famous father in the process.

 

All she needs is the perfect person to take the fall…






BRANDI
I had a ton of illusions, vivid fantasies of what it would be like to score a coveted internship at Van Doren. Deluded old me thought I would be strutting around the stunning tri-story headquarters in single-soled heels, flitting from design concept meetings to on-location photo shoots, living my best fashion-girl life. Instead, I’m in the back corner of the two-thousand-square-foot ready-to-wear samples closet scrubbing fresh vomit from a slinky gown worth double my rent during my lunch hour.
Italian Vogue’s current cover girl borrowed the hand-sewn dress for a red-carpet event last night, and apparently getting it back on a rack without ruining it was too much for one of the other interns to handle. She was so hungover when she came to the office this morning that she vomited all over the dress before making it out of the elevator. But of course this dress needs to be ready for another model to wear to some big extravaganza tonight, and since I’m the designated fuckover intern, I have to clean it by hand because the satin-blend fabric is too delicate to be dry-cleaned.
This is what it takes.
I chant this to remind myself why I’m here as the lactic acid builds up in my biceps. Working for Van Doren has been on my proverbial vision board ever since I reluctantly gave up the idea, in middle school, that I could be Beyoncé. It’s a storm of hauling hundreds of pounds of runway samples around the city and sitting in on meetings with the sketch artists. A glorious, next-to-holy experience when I’m on duty at photo shoots and one of the stylists sends me to fetch another blazer, not a specific blazer, which means I get to use my own vestiary inclinations to make the selection. Which has only happened once, but still.
Just as I get the stain faded by at least seventy percent, I hear the sharp staccato of someone in stilettos approaching. I turn around and see Lexi. Lexi with her bimonthly touched-up white-blond hair and generous lip filler that she’ll never admit to having injected. When she steps closer in her head-to-toe Reformation, I am grateful that I remembered to put on a few sprays of my Gypsy Water perfume. The one that smells like rich people. But the way she’s staring at me right now, it’s clear that no matter how much I try, I am still not on her level. I do not fit in here. She does not see me as her equal, despite the fact that we are both unpaid, unknown, disposable interns. It’s become glaringly obvious that at Van Doren, it’s not actually about what you contribute, but more about how blue your blood is. Lexi doesn’t even know my name, though I’ve been here a solid nine weeks and I’m pretty sure I’ve told her at least a dozen times.
I’m already on edge because of my assignment, so I jump in before she can ask in her monotone voice. “Brandi.”
“Right,” she says, like she does every time yet still forgets. “Chloé wants the Instagram analytics report for last week. She said she asked you to put it together an hour ago.”
Which is true, but completely unfair since Jenna from marketing also asked me to run to Starbucks to buy thirty-one-ounce cups of liquid crack for her and her entire department for a 9:00 a.m. meeting, an effort that took three trips total, and technically I’m still working on the data sheets I promised Eric from product development. Not to mention the obvious: getting rid of the puke from the dress.
“I’m still working on it,” I tell her.
Lexi stares at me, her overly filled brows lifted, as if she’s waiting for the rest of my excuse. I understand her, but also I’m wondering how she still hasn’t realized this is not a case of Resting Bitch Face I have going on, that I am actually intolerant of her nagging.
Normally, I am not this terse. But nothing about today has been normal. Since this week is my period week, I’m retaining water in the most unflattering of places and the pencil dress I’m wearing has been cutting off the circulation in my thighs for the past couple of hours, and being that I’ve spent most of my break destroying the evidence of someone else’s bad decisions, it is not my fault that I’m not handling this particularly well.
“I’ll send it over as soon as I’m done,” I say to Lexi so she can leave. But she doesn’t.
“HR wants to see you,” she says with what looks like a smirk.
My mouth opens. I have no idea what HR could want, and although I’m still new to this employee thing, I know this can’t be good.
“Like, now,” Lexi barks and pivots away in her strappy, open-toe stilts.
I hang the sample next to the door, and before I leave the room I pause to briefly take in the rest of the dresses stuffed on the racks, each one in that chic, elevated aesthetic that is the cornerstone of Van Doren. This is my favorite part of the day, the chaotic nature of this room a little overwhelming but also inspiring, and I can’t wait for the day that this is my world, not just one I’m peeking my head into. A world in which I command respect.
I cross through the merchandising department, where everyone has their own private office with aerial views of Hell’s Kitchen, Soho and the Garment District, and then move through the maze of the sprawling suite in a mild sort of panic until I remind myself that I have done nothing wrong. Ever since spring semester ended, I’ve been putting in more hours than the sun. I slip in at six-thirty when the building is dark and vaguely ominous, my eyes still puffy with sleep, and when I finally drag myself into the elevator at the end of the day, it’s just as black and quiet outside. I religiously show up in current-season heels despite the blisters, albeit mass-produced renditions of the Fendi, Balenciaga and Bottega Venetas the other summer interns casually strut around in, and mostly stick to myself. I am careful about raising my voice, even if I vehemently disagree with my neurotic supervisor. I keep my tongue as puritanical as a nun’s, even when fucking incel or coddled narcissistic bitch are on the tip of it. I’m not rude or combative. I stay away from gossip. I complete all my tasks with time to spare, which is usually when I check Twitter and help out some of the other interns, even though I’d rather FaceTime Nate in the upstairs bathroom with the magical lighting. I even entertain the gang of sartorially inclined Amy Coopers in the making who insist on obnoxiously complaining to me about all of their first-world, one-percenter problems. I’ve done nothing but consistently given them reasons to think I am a capable, qualified, talented intern who would make an exceptional employee.
I have nothing to worry about.
When I knock on the door to Lauren’s office, she looks up from her desk and waves me in through the glass. I have a feeling this will not go my way when I see that my supervisor, Chloé, one of the more amiable assistants, is also here, fiddling with her six-carat engagement ring in the corner and avoiding eye contact.
“Have a seat, Brandi,” Lauren says, and I tell myself to ignore that her bright pink lipstick extends above her lip on one side.
There is no small talk. No hello or how’s it going? Under alternate circumstances, I would feel slighted, but because I’m growing more anxious by the second, I’m grateful for her smugness.
As I sit down, Chloé shifts in her chair, and I speak before she can. “I’m sorry. The Instagram report is at the top of my task list. I’ll definitely have it to you before I leave today. I just—”
“That’s not why you’re here, Brandi,” Lauren interjects.
“Oh.” I pause, and as she glances down at her notes, I try to make meaningful eye contact with my supervisor, but she is still actively dodging my eyes.
Lauren begins by throwing out a few compliments. My work ethic is admirable and I have great attention to detail, she says, and the whole time my heart is pounding so loud, I can barely make out most of her words. Chloé jumps in to effusively agree, then Lauren finally stops beating around the bush and looks me directly in the eyes.
“We just don’t feel like you’re fitting into the culture here at Van Doren.”
Every word feels like a backhanded slap across the face, the kind that twists your neck and makes the world go still and white for a few disconcerting moments, like an orgasm but not like an orgasm. It’s obvious what they mean, yet can’t quite bring themselves to say.
They just don’t like that I’m black.
They don’t like the way I wear my braids—long and unapologetic, grazing my hips like a Nubian mermaid.
They don’t like that I’m not the smile-and-nod type, willing to assimilate to their idea of what I should be, how I should act.
Culture.
That’s their code for we-can’t-handle-your-individuality-but-since-we-don’t-want-to-seem-racist-we’ll-invent-this-little-loophole.
Black plus exceptional equals threat.
“If we don’t see any improvement in the coming weeks, we’re going to have to let you go,” Lauren says with no irony, her mouth easing into a synthetic smile.
I blink. I cannot believe this is happening right now. It wasn’t supposed to go like this, my internship at Van Doren, the one fashion company whose ethics align with mine. I wasn’t just blowing smoke up Lauren’s ass when I interviewed for this job, though I was looking at her sideways, wondering why she had not a stitch of Van Doren on. I’d splurged on a single-shouldered jumpsuit from this year’s spring collection that I couldn’t really afford just to impress her, while she hadn’t even felt the need to represent the brand at all as she shot out all those futile questions interviewers love propelling at candidates, I’m convinced, just to see them squirm. Even minuscule amounts of power can be dangerous.
This is bullshit, being put on probation, and I’d give anything to have the balls to call them on it. As I sit here paralyzed, Lauren’s words reverberate in my head and I rebuke them, want to suffocate and bury them.






Social Links:

Author Website: https://www.amberanddanielle.com/ 

Twitter: https://twitter.com/ambersharelle 

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Authors’ Bio: 


Amber and Danielle Brown both graduated from Rider University where they studied Communications/Journalism and sat on the editorial staff for the On Fire!! literary journal. They then pursued a career in fashion and spent five years in NYC working their way up, eventually managing their own popular fashion and lifestyle blog. Amber is also a screenwriter, so they live in LA, which works out perfectly so Danielle can spoil her plant babies with copious amount of sunshine.


Wednesday, December 21, 2022

MISSING by Cornelia Maude Spelman (JackLeg Press)

 Welcome to my showcase for MISSING by Cornelia Maude Spelman (JackLeg Press) 


PUBLICATION DATE: July 15, 2022 

ISBN: 978-1737513445  

PRICE: $17.00


Acclaimed children’s book author Cornelia Maude Spelman’s memoir of her family springs from a meeting and subsequent friendship with the late, legendary New Yorker editor William MaxwellIn the 1920s, he and her parents had been friends as undergraduates at the University of Illinois at Urbana-Champaign. When Spelman hints at what she thinks of as the failure of her parents’ lives, he counters that “in a good novel one doesn’t look for a success story, but for a story that moves one with its human drama and richness of experience.”

At their final meeting, Maxwell encourages her to tell her mother’s story. Missing is Spelman’s response to Maxwell’s wisdom. With the pacing of the mystery novels her mother loved, and using everything from letters and interviews to the family’s quotidian paper trail—medical records, telegrams, and other oft-overlooked clues to a family’s history—Spelman reconstructs her mother’s life and untimely death. Along the way, she unravels mysteries of her family, including the fate of her long lost older brother.

Spelman skillfully draws the reader into the elation and sorrow that accompany the discovery of a family’s past. A profoundly loving yet honest elegy, Missing is, like the woman it memorializes, complex and beautiful




Cornelia Maude Spelman
About the Author
My memoir, MISSING, is now out in paperback from JackLeg Press. It is about my search to understand the "emotional legacies" in my family, and to find out what happened in my mother's past. You can see a one-minute video about the book on this site. Author Alex Kotlowitz (THERE ARE NO CHILDREN HERE) wrote of MISSING: "Spelman's gentle, lyrical prose belies the haunting nature of her story, a searing, honest search for the lost pieces of her family's story...It's memoir writing at its absolute finest."

I wrote “The Way I Feel” picture books to help children name, understand, and manage their feelings—and to help their parents and caregivers, who, perhaps, like many of us, were not offered much help, themselves, with their emotions. I felt sure that such books would be of use, but even my experiences when I was a therapist and worked with young children and families, and my own mothering and grandmothering times, had not prepared me for the touching responses of relief and comfort that these books have elicited. It seems that having their adults read with them about a feeling, turning the pages and looking at the illustrations of animal charcters who are experiencing feelings that the children, too, experience, places upsetting and confusing emotions into the safe world of a book, a safe world where feelings have names and where there are methods to manage them.

Sunday, December 18, 2022

A Small Affair

 Welcome to my show case for A Small Affair which is been hosted by Park Row Books, Hanover Square Press, MIRA Books, Graydon House, Inkyard Press ,HarperCollinsPublishers | Harlequin



A Small Affair : A Novel 

Flora Collins

On Sale Date: December 27, 2022

9780778386933

Trade Paperback

$17.99 USD

336 pages

Buy Links: 

Bookshop.org: https://bookshop.org/p/books/a-small-affair-flora-collins/18073842?ean=9780778386933

B&N: https://www.barnesandnoble.com/w/a-small-affair-flora-collins/1140845010

IndieBound: https://www.indiebound.org/book/9780778386933 

Books A Million: https://www.booksamillion.com/p/9780778386933?AID=10747236&PID=7310909&cjevent=81600aef729111ed82a800f90a82b821&cjdata=MXxOfDB8WXww 

Amazon: https://www.amazon.com/Small-Affair-Novel-Flora-Collins/dp/0778386937



A twisting novel of psychological suspense about a young woman whose life is torn apart when her wealthy ex-lover is found dead, along with his wife.


Vera is ruthlessly ambitious, beautiful by her own account, and knows how to get exactly what she wants--no matter who stands in the way. When she starts a relationship with a wealthy older man who tells her he’s separated from his wife, she thinks litte of it. After only a few dates, she ends things, but that’s only the beginning. Days later, the man and his wife are found dead in their home, leaving behind a note saying Vera’s rejection had driven him to the horrible act of violence.


Vera is immediately blamed for the couple’s deaths, demonized by the press, fired from her job, and when stalkers and paparazzi begin to haunt her apartment, she flees to her mother’s house upstate. A year later, emerging from a cocoon of self-pity, she tries to re-enter the world, to get her job back—or any job—but the specter of scandal still clings to her. Then she’s invited to a memorial for the wife of the man she had an affair with. As she learns more about the family, and about the couple and their friends, she begins to suspect there was much more to the story than a simple affair gone wrong. In a quest for redemption, Vera soon begins uncovering layers of lies and close-kept secrets held by an inner-circle of filthy rich tech millionaires who will go to any lengths to protect their reputations.


1

One year ago

We met on an app, one of those achingly boring, exclusive ones. White text on a black background. Where you have to work in a certain industry, have a certain type of education, a pedigree to differentiate yourself from the riffraff.

Oddly, or perhaps not oddly at all, I remember the exact moment we matched. I was on my couch under a heavy knit green blanket, my legs splayed across my best friend and roommate’s legs. We were watching Real Housewives—though which franchise, I can’t recall—ignoring each other, ignoring the TV. Classic millennials on our phones, doom scrolling.

I wish with all my might I could do that again. Sit next to Quinn on that olive green couch we’d found in a West Village Housing Works and ignore each other without these ghosts separating us, sitting on my chest. Incapacitating me. Incapacitating all my relationships.

“Ugh, can you move your legs? Mine are asleep,” Quinn whined, throwing his end of the blanket in my face and getting up on unsteady feet, stretching. He padded across to our small kitchen and took out a beer, watched me on my phone, my face lit by the glare of the TV.

I looked up. “Want to help? I’m back on the apps.” Quinn set his beer down and clapped his hands. Quinn didn’t date much. He’d been on and off with his partner, Sam, for seven years now, since we were sophomores in college. Right then they were off, had been off for the past six months or so. I knew it would only be so long until they got back together; they rarely dated other people. It was like they were actually meant for each other.

But he loved to live vicariously through me. Loved to vet and interrogate all the guys who had come home with me over the years, commenting on their clothes, their hair, their smell, to their faces, forcing me to tell every minute detail about the sex, the morning after, whether they snuggled me up close at night. Whether they followed my instructions in bed, asked what I wanted, needed.

So I wasn’t surprised when he plopped back down on the couch, grabbed my phone away from me and began to swipe. 

“All these people have liked you?” he asked, eyes roving over the screen. I nodded. “Damn, Vera, you haven’t been on this app in ages, have you? You have like fifty likes.” I nodded again. I hadn’t gone out with anyone in a few months, mostly because of new responsibilities at work. It wasn’t even like I felt incapacitated by those responsibilities; I just had no wish to spread my enthusiasm for work thin. Dating forced me to spread it thin, and if I were being honest, the whole process of dating made me utterly exhausted.

But now I had a handle on everything. I was ready to start anew, begin the process yet again like every other mad straight woman always assuming the next man will be different. And I was bored. I hate that most of all, that I was bored. My whole life in pieces because I didn’t buy a good enough vibrator.

“So you get to ‘like’ them back? And that’s a match?”

“Yes. If you gave me my phone, I could show you.” But it was no use; he was already at it. “You know, we have different tastes. You keep swiping no on people I think are cute.”

But Quinn kept the phone. “Babe, I have better taste than you. Just trust me.” And I did.

In a few minutes he passed back my phone. He’d only “liked” three people back: a tall, built guy with too many selfies. A dweeby-looking dude with excellent education credentials, but barely any neck.

And Him. Tom Newburn. Older, the oldest end of the spectrum I’d set. Thirty-seven—ten years older than I was then. Square jaw. Slicked back, dark hair. Shapely lips. One child. Liberal.

Within minutes, he’d messaged me. And it occurred to me, as my phone buzzed with a notification, that there was no way to tell when he’d “liked” me first, that he could have been waiting for months, since the moment I’d first logged off the app. And just like that, he pounced the moment I “liked” him back.

Are you a fan of Eyes Wide Shut?

And that made me smile, because that was my answer to the prompt “What’s one thing you can never stop talking about?” And I’d said: “Nicole Kidman’s poison green Galliano for Dior dress from the 1997 Oscars.” It was a cheeky answer for a straight woman to give; it easily filtered out the men who would automatically dismiss me as a “fashion chick” and swipe left.

I typed out a reply. Then deleted it. Typed it out again. Quinn wasn’t paying attention to me anymore; he was back on his own phone. I didn’t want his opinion, anyway.

Yes, but I prefer To Die For if you really want vintage Kidman.

That was the beginning of the end, I guess. 

Excerpted from A Small Affair by Flora Collins, Copyright © 2022 by Flora Collins. Published by MIRA Books.



ABOUT THE AUTHOR:


Flora Collins was born and raised in New York City and has never left, except for a four-year stint at Vassar College. When she's not writing, she can be found watching reality shows that were canceled after one season or attempting to eat soft-serve ice cream in bed (sometimes simultaneously). Nanny Dearest was her first novel.


SOCIAL LINKS:

Twitter: https://twitter.com/flococo16?lang=en

Instagram: @floracollins_author


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